veiled.

mind or heart

When the semester was coming to an end, I couldnt be happier. With the completion of projects and assignments, who wouldnt be? But it didnt occur to me that I wont be able to see him or even meet him for two months once the holidays officially start. I didnt realise that till today when he replied my text, saying he thinks we shouldnt be meeting up apart from school. That just broke me to a million pieces. A billion, counting the shattering of my heart.

I cried. Yes of course I cried. I still love you so much, I dont even mind having you as a brother. A brother that loves me like Im his precious little sister. If thats the most we can go to, I dont mind one single bit. But it seems that you dont even want that now, you reply my texts seeming to avoid me. I dont want to assume anything, however I dont have the courage to ask knowing how fragile and unstable I am emotionally.

Confusion. Mentally and emotionally draining. And I still try my very best to think positive, to make myself feel better with things that make me smile.

Our pictures. Faried Junior. The special necklace.

I miss you, Faried. And if youre reading this, please know that youre special and I need you in my life. I want you in my life. And I know Im not the person I was last time, but you know somehow if you looked deep that girl is still there waiting for you.

Yes, Im still waiting for you.

Assalamualaikum.

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