A smile to hide the sorrow.
I've been such a wreck for the past weeks, what with the school assignments and projects. Plus the constant fights with Faried, which very much tore me to pieces. Fighting with him was the last thing I wanted to happen, I tried my best to divert anything and everything that would cause us to fight. But verily if God wants it to happen, there's no way we can avoid fighting at all.
Its been two weeks since we parted, and my dearest boy, I have not gotten over you even if it seems like I really have. I still very much love you and this heart aches to be so close yet so far away from you. However, having said that, it seems like you don''t mind having this huge space between us. I mind. All I can think off when I'm free is how to talk to you. How to tell you I miss you without you changing the subject. Because for now, all I long for is to hear you say that you miss me too.
To look at Faried and see him smiling so brightly and laughing so gleefully, it brings tears to my eyes. He looks like such an angel, each time he smiles he seems to glow. Its beautiful to see the one you love being so happy, and I cant help but stare, a slight smile forming on my lips. Despite the fact that I'm happy to see him this way, I cant push aside the ache in my heart, for I am no longer the reason for that gorgeous smile. Sigh /wipes tears/
Anyway, I think I found out something really important for me through this school semester. I work much better under pressure. Pressurize me and I finish my assignments and projects faster, and with good quality at that. I cant believe it took me this long to realize. Faried's right. I'm slow. Haha!
There's really nothing else to say right now.
So till next time, Assalamualaikum :)
xoxo Dhany ♥
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